never had to get aa stupid job, any of them? could have kept all my art? could have been doing the art i wanted to do ages ago? could have been doing stuff from cool shit, the materials i wanted to with tools i should have had ages ago, instead of carving soap fuckin carots and potatoes, never had to sit and do nothing being useless,  nevr had to look stupid not having food, paying rent, could have just gone on the dole at 16 got my own house room for art and pets, anything i wanted? other thing i was programed to do, what were they? i know exactly how stupid i look and have been. do any of you know how useless we all are? how stupid you look? if i am made to fuck,putupwith this i want everyone to kind of rally, i dunno i am too nice, i thought we were meant to be nice that is obviously true and not true. i want others to go homeless people who deserve it, i want them to look as stupid as i looked and felt. this is rlly not a nice place to be. could have been doing i dunno things from lime even instead of soap, all the things i made break, like takes like same time as spoap, coud have kept them, could have sold them in lime for cheap, everyone wouldave been happy. i dunno whatever. i have learn'd alot, learned thre is no hope rally, people don't share knowlege, food, anything, selfish set people up for preety horiffic things. could have been making things from pleanty of easy wood or painting if i had room, sold things for cheap, anything, don't want to think about anything else just art, people are useless and mean. rally mean rally,holymolyguakamoly not funny dont wanna thenkerbowt it. that is what this place is folks. hahahahihihi keep watching tv. people are cool but i dunno. lots of people are cool rally but i dunno. just keep swiming just keep swiming. whatever. i four1 don't loike the news. don't like it at all. cant see why grown people would or could watch such a thing.