what-wil-i-complain-about-today?-maybe-something-i-have-complaind-about-before.
something-from-district-9-came-over-and-took-a-shit-outside-pontion.-anyone-seen-the-green-thing?-a-bit-hard-to-fuckin-miss.-i-wanted-to-go-take-a-picture-but-am-afraid-of-breaking-the-camera.-you-seen-people-mention-science-about-leaving-positive-and-negative-energy-around-glasses-of-water-and-then-later-examining-the-water-christals-or-sum-shit-after-a-bit-of-time-and-the-glass-with-positive-energy-looks-preety-while-the-other-isnt.-what-did-terence-say-artists-make-healing-images-or-images-that-make-you-sick.-that-green-boogie-thing-fuck,-howmuch-did-they-spend-on-that?-jesus-fuck.
who-did-that?-and-howmuch-did-it-cost?-and-when-are-they-going-to-take-it-away?-looks-like-it'l-cost-them-alot,-i-think-they-will-need-people-in-disinfectant-space-siuts-to-av-a-look-at-it-and-sort-it-out.-who-fuckin-did-that-anyway,and-why-is-it-that-colour?-and-what-is-it-exactly?-i-heard-it-cost-a-fuckload-and-was-done-by-an-englishman.-i-kind-of-like-it,-it's-fuckin-hilarious-but,come-on-now,-dont-people-learn-anything-about-art-in-school-or-colege?
i-am-trying-to-get-my-place-back-in-colege-but-they-dont-even-answer-my-messages.-i-didn't-turn-up-for-a-week-and-they-cicked-me-off-the-course.-i-had-3or4-jobs,-1-of-which-i-wasn't-paid-for,and-didn't-have-my-student-allowence.-and-i-got-accepted-a-bit-fuckin-late-so-didn't-have-a-clue-what-the-fuck-to-do-with-the-briefs.-do-coleges-or-uni's-whatever-the-fuck-know-anything-about-art?-i-do-want-this-position-back,-i-have-sat-down-looking-at-the-floor-waiting-for-a-responce-for-fuckin-ages-now.-i-am-definately-not-taking-a-job-again.-work-hard-for-english-retard-bosses-who-are-already-rich-who-take-the-piss-with-paying.-these-people-bully-slaves-into-working-faster-and-faster-to-save-pennies-when-they-dont-have-a-clue-themselves-what-working-hard-everyday-is.
what-was-coledge-exactly?-nothing-about-art.-went-on-a-trip-to-london-to-see-some-art-for-inspiration,-alot-of-it-was-shit.-the-science-museum-is-cool-but-the-rest-of-it,-was-a-bit-shit.-i-saw-much-beter-art-in-fuckin-carmarthen,the-shithole-in-southwales.-i-was-very-impressed,i-thought-people-from-southwales-were-all-retards-about-art.-and-colege,-i-turn-up-everyday,they-tell-me-yes-do-sculptures.-i'm-like-yes-fuckin-good-can-i-have-some-room?-they-give-me-a-desk-and-a-chair-crammed-in-with-other-students.-im-like-ok-there-is-no-room-for-making-skulptures,-i-want-to-learn-paintings-cos-it-looks-fuckin-easy-and-takes-less-time-and-effort-than-sculpturing-hard-fuckin-wood-which-i-have-no-real-fuckin-tools-to-do-anyway.-they're-like-what?-you-painting?-no-no-stick-to-making-skulptures.-they-don't-know-i-can-make-way-beter-paintings-than-them.-anyway,-they're-like-make-a-sketchbook-from-all-the-inspiration-you-get-from-the-london-trip-or-wherever-then-make-the-skulpture.-i'm-like-i'will-make-the-skulpture-first-then-make-the-sketchbook.-they're-like-NO!-wait-what?-that-is-not-how-art-is-made,-you-have-to-make-sketchbok-first-with-ideas,all-that-shit-then-make-the-skulpture.-im-like-when-i-make-a-skulpture,-i-have-to-look-at-the-piece-of-wood-or-whatever-i-am-sculpting-and-it-tells-me-where-to-cut-and-what-shape-it-wants-to-be,this-is-how-i-make-rally-cool-shit.-i-have-unlimited-fuckin-ideas-in-my-head,-it's-hard-for-me-to-write-them-down.-and-i-told-them-i-want-to-make-rally-cool-prosthetic-arms-and-legs-and-shit,like-rally-fuckin-cool.-i-am-unable-to-do-that-at-this-moment,-i-could-have-started-it-2or3-years-ago-instead-of-sitting-every-day-looking-at-the-floor-doing-nothing.-and-i-am-unable-to-do-nice-clean-tidy-sketchbooks-like-the-others,-i-didn't-have-a-computer-til-i-started-colege-and-dont-have-a-fuckin-cluewith-paperwork.-i-have-been-to-ysgol-maes-yr-yrfa-where-i-sat-and-looked-at-the-floor.-what-the-fuck-is-school-apart-from-child-abuse,-i-trned-up-everyday-cos-i-thought-i-had-to-cos-ww2-just-ended-not-long-ago-and-if-you-dont-turn-up-to-school-you-get-arested-and-put-in-a-fuckin-care-home-for-kids-or-sumin.-i-dont-think-schools-know-what-they're-doing-giving-kids-ptsd-and-angziety.-angziety-is-real,-it-is-when-you-puke-everyday-before-school,-and-dont-eat-until-after4-or5pm-when-you-get-back-after-learning-nothing-rally.-i-think-kids-should-be-learning-surfing,or-actual-work-or-something-physical-and-healthy-insatead-of-just-sitting-learning-nothing.-i-could-have-learn't-much-more-actualy,-but-school-work-isnt-cool-and-i-wanted-to-be-cool,-you-have-to-or-you-get-bullied.-when-you-have-1-teacher-looking-after-a-class-of-26-wild-animals-that-should-be-put-down-rally,when-the-teacher-turns-around-or-isnt-there-the-kids-fuck-about,-it's-just-human-nature.-i-completely-fucked-up-my-life-cos-of-school-i-think.-i-have-blamed-myself,-for-many-years,-until-the-triangle-told-me.-i-looked-at-myself-kind-of-like-a-parent-can-look-at-his-child-and-saw-i-was-a-rally,nice,-too-nice-retard-kid-with-big-glasses-that-looked-like-the-milkybar-kid,-only-more-anorexic-because-o-extremef-angziety-and-parents-arguing-and-school-and-a-fuckin-older-brother.-anyway,-i-just-copied-everyone-else.-i-ate-meat-cos-i-thought-it-would-make-me-grow,-went-to-school-where-i-never-talked-to-women,was-given-amobile-phone-with-extreeme-violence-and-porn.-i-saw-a-woman-get-fucked-by-a-real-horse,think-she-died,i-don't-know,-fucked-me-up-tho,-but-i-liked-violence-and-videos-of-people-breaking-bones-and-shit-and-liked-porn.-i-came-from-a-house-living-with-my-grandmother-who-is-religious-and-school-didn't-teach-anything-about-relationships,-my-family-too,-fuckin-jeremy-kile-fuckin-retards.-anyway,-didn't-know-anything-about-anything-raly,art,classical-music-or-relationships.-i-copied-others-and-was-a-retard-myself,-i-thought-what-you-do-as-a-man-is-get-a-full-time-job,-a-man's-job-like-building-and-joining-the-army-and-wanted-to-drink-on-weekends,-or-everyday-actualy-and-fuck-women.-asw-many-women-as-you-can-to-get-the-numbers-up.-because-that's-what-a-real-man-is.-completely-messed-up-didn't-know-i-wanted-kids-and-how-to-do-relationships-or-even-talk-to-women-properly-actualy.-and-anyway-here-i-am-now.
no-i-dont-have-kids,-if-i-do-i-am-very-very-sorry-but-i-didn't-have-a-clue-and-am-actualy-a-very-nice-person.-if-i-do-have-kids-they-are-like-10-or7-or-something-and-i-have-no-money.-no-i-dont-sleep-around-atall-or-drink-or-go-out-and-havent-touched-a-woman-for-like-10-years-i-kind-of-wanted-kids-but-there-is-no-way-i-want-to-bring-anything-into-this-world,-no-fuckin-way,-just-to-get-bullied-into-being-a-slave-by-british-retards-i-couldn't-send-them-to-school-to-be-turned-into-a-retard-and-not-know-anything-about-building-or-fishing.-i-think-british-culture-is-the-most-retarded-one-in-the-world.-i-have-never-had-a-proper-relationship-dont-have-a-clue-what-women-are-like-rally,-i-know-they-are-programed-to-be-a-useless-dumbfuck-like-me.-schools-are-probably-beter-now-and-kids-have-computers-and-shit-to-learn.-i-was-probably-just-the-one-in-every-25-kids-that-wanted-to-do-a-columbine-on-my-school-when-i-left.-i-just-didn't-have-a-gun.-thought-about-kitchen-knives,-bit-fuck-it-im-lucky-i-didn't-grow-up-in-amerika-Haha!