not one person wants to buy anything at all, i am unable to borow money to start a buisiness. well i am but they are robots and are unable too help out unless i fill in all the forms exactly how they want it and i am half retarded with paperwork, i dunno i actualy like making actual real things and like to seporate reality from virtual reality paperwork type stuff that drastically directly impact people in a severely negative way for example people are unable to pay rent without made up money or unable to buy actual real food and forced on tins if they are lucky to get any and if they are lucky enough to get them in date while people, everyone else is bining good quality food every day. if i am making any sense. i dunno, it's hard maybe i have gone dillirius from fucking starving if dilirius is the word.
no one is able to atempt to help me out, no one has a fuckin clue what art or reality is anymore. colege is fucking useless, i'd have liked to have known i wasn't allowed back on the cource to finish my 3rd and final year and get actul help with paaperwork or buisiness and money which we are forced to live on. if they'd have just replied instead of ignoring fucking all my messages just nothing, i'd have known to just bin everything and go homeless and save my money 3 years ago instead of renting an expensive room for actual room to keep my stuff which i could have been paying for with student loans.
so what now? well nobody at all is buying anything, i have no idea with paperwork, i get no help at all, i have been forced to steal cancer research money to survive for food. no one is donating at all when people are reado to donate thousands or millions to people who sit and plaay videogames. that is cool, i wish i'd have had friends and money to teach me to do the same. i loved videogames, i haave an adictive personality and was good at all the old ones. i could get into the new ones easy especially if it means getting paid, geting a new tv and new consoles and everything.
what can i do? i can sell this laptop i paid a 115pounds for, sell a shit camera and broken tv. i will bin ll my art eventhough they took hours and all my money to make. i am definately not giving them away to other people for no reason. i value chickens lives more than people. all people do is cost you money and go hahahahihihi yesyes and steal it all from you. what can i do, looked at jobs, fuckin slavery jobs, that's ok eventhough retards like spectrum cleaning will fuck you out of hours or just end up not paying you at all. what is there to do? carer work, um fuck off, no way am i doing anything like that i never wanted to do that before. cleaning, that's ok but you only get 8 hours a week with the ones i see up now, not enough for rent at all, pays for food maybe but thats it and i owe thousands in rent. i have no idea with jobcentres i am not going on the dole, it doesn't make sense, i can't do it, shop work no way i don't like people at all, there is no way i am standing around going hahaahhihihi for hours pretending to be nice talking to you fucking retard zombies. caffe work, no fuck off i never wanted to do that in the first place, you need time aand room to cook properly and i don't want to fuck around doing what someone else is telling me to do making stupid shit look preety for useless retards to eat. wake up people you are suposed to be humans not selfish computer programes. fuck it bin everything or burn it and go jump off a bridge. start again. i'l know what to do next time, say fuck no to school, say fuck you to useless controlling women and go buy a fishingrod and go live in the woods.