i did get em lookin freekier before with vains all popin out all the way up everywhere. i can't tense properly while holding the camera but i wish i was ginormous. i have also not eatoen food rally for like 5 years, never eaten food properly. been fasting for halucinations too a bit but have also been obsesed with trying to eat as much as i can due to morbidly obice welsh people telling me to put on weight all the time. i have only had a chese sandwige and muffin today and didn;t eat anything at all yesterday i think, just a spoon of peanut butter. if i smoke weed and eat alone i can easily eat 4 proper meals a day and lift weights although havent done that for years due to not having any weights anymore and i dont like going to the gym at all. i think i weigh about 50-55kg. never weighed more than 65kg i dont think, was verry obsesed with puting on weight before. i need to make this verry clear, i rally don't eat without canabis. when i was younger if i put a fork of food close to my mouth i would start gagging like throwing up. it felt like it was imposible to eat. lifting weights a bit helped me try and put on weight but canabis is the only way i can eat comfortably, and i like eating completely alone. i have never liked eating around a stupid fuckin table with the family or eating out. i hate being skinny i wish i looked like gregg valentino or flex lewis but have never been interested in steroids or creatine. i have tried creatin only couple of times. always told to put on weight and as a child always asked howmuch i weighed and compared to other kids that were raly quite big, ome bigger than their parents i think. all we do look at magazines and famous people and talk about how they look. we are verry sick. alot of men are naturally tiny or skinny, maybe not as small as me but it is natural. i wanted fuckin weights as a kid, and i needed them i believe. i should have exercised more as a kid but never left the house rally. performed verry poorly in bleeptests in school, but wanted to be good in some kind of sport. not allowed hair gel or mud on my clothes so didn't leave the house rally. just played videogames and music. not allowed a fuckin guitar either. i wanted a guitar and pointed one out in a magazine with a teaching dvd and book for 50pounds but never had it. my sister had one and a fuckin violin and computer, but anyway, i wanted fuckin weights. this is verry important, i should have had canabis as a kid, from the age of like 3years old i believe. i was told i was a fussy eater, i am not. i eat curry and fuckin anything just not around other people, unless drunk or phsycked myself up for eating round a table. i am with gregg valentino on everything on his views on drugs, alcahol is by far the worst thing i have done, love the people on steroids, but think it is over the top and bad for animals eating thatmuch, but canabis is a fuckin medicine. gagging and puking trying to eat food and force feeding kids is completely wrong. that is childabuse. i don't blame my mother at all. i do blame every other member of my family for being morbidly obice welsh retards. i deadlifted more than them with my skinny arms and legs. and am stil constantly told i am skiny and need to put on weight. saw my dad and brother couple of weeks ago and told to eat more. but they are fat, and have tits.mighti have bit of gino on one side maybe, pierced the other nipple before, might be a sight of like prostate cancer or something internet tells me, but no i am in good or exelent health. canabis fuckin saved me. never did it til 17ish. was completely against drugs, i did mdma before canabis i think maybe. and ate food as vegan or vegetarion easyer, gave me like an excuse to eat diferently around other people too. but canabis is fuckin exelent. look at videos of people gagging trying to eat, not nice at all. eating round a fuckin table with stupid knives and forks is fuckin stupid. every member of my family apart from my mother is a bit retarded. fuckin doctors are retards too. i do encourage the use of illegal drugs as long as it's canabis to people of all ages as a phdfucking not a doctor but knowing exactly what the fuck i am on about. you have no idea what food angziety is unless you experience puking trying to eat. i did around 7 years off canabis and it was fuckin stupid. that is the truth.